重新看了之前與r所有寫過的信
仔細回想當時他給我的感覺﹐
加上上次他所說的那些話﹐
也許當時我的直覺是對的﹐
當時他遇見我時﹐
也許正處於剛分手沒多久的狀態﹐
所以看到一個像我這樣的女孩子時﹐
開始有點點在注意我吧
不斷的約我出去﹐
寫信給我﹐
想到有一陣子﹐突然之間好像失去他的消息
想到有一陣子﹐他好像有點刻意迴避﹐
在想到他說的﹐當他覺得ready時卻又發生了那麼多事
剛好時間就是在他第一個公司關的時候
現在想想一切似乎好像都可以合理化
雖然自己不確定﹐
不過我相信只要是人﹐
不會不去胡思亂想的吧
對他﹐也許心中也會有個期待
雖然知道他不是我夢中的理想情人的型﹐
但也許又是寂寞感使然﹐
讓自己覺得也許有個人陪也不錯
m,真的好遙遠
真的無法確定﹐
如果再過幾個月﹐
我們都無法見面﹐
會變成什麼樣的情況﹐
不管如何﹐我都決定要去嘗試
怎麼樣也得見一面﹐把之前的感覺抓回來吧
唉
m,
I'm been thinking about you these days,
I know I'm still like u,
But seems like the feeling of you it's been fade away and getting unreal day by day,
When I looked at the photo we took while u were here,
The feeling of you is not that strong as 3 month ago,
I knew it's because the distance, and also I don't know u deep enough,
So the passion of you will fade away quite easy,
But I feel regret if it just gone like this,
I’m usually not an aggressive woman, but this time I really don't want to let the possible chance go away like this
I knew I would regret if I don't even try,
So I decide to come visit,
I’m telling you about my feeling, is not pushing you or want to know the answer from you,
I don't care what do u think about me during these 3 month,
only if I try,
If that doesn't work out, that's fine,
We will still be good friends, but I won’t keep thinking about you and wonder what if when I get back…
It’s easier for me to get this clear like this,
So u don't have to guess what am I really have in mind,
And I don't have to worry what do u really think about me,
Just give it a try.
So no pushing, no pressure, we will be good friends for ever,
And don't be afraid if I will get hurt if it doesn't work out between us,
I'm stronger than u expect. Ok?
So take care, hope to see u soon!!