Now i realized how boring a weekend can be and how lonely I am now. I think I also start to understand how tough it was for dongdong to go through a two-and-half year working life without his girlfriend being around.

I never blamed anyone, neither dongdong nor jeffrey. No matter how much i was hurt, I know it might be the problem of different life, mentality or experience that made me not understand them well. They might be totally right. Just that I do not see their point of view as I hadn't experienced the life they had experienced.

Reading the old sms will make me cry. dongdong... can i call u.. I'm really down.. I need a boyfirned, a need a family, a need ppl to fall back on...