我還記得...

過去研究所時最愛講的話是 "我來想想 ( Let me think about it )" or 

"我覺得怪怪的 (it's strange to me...) or What's your point? (你到底要說什麼?)

這些話聽起來很平常

但!

Have your ever questioned about where you are or what you are?

OR WHEERE AM I GOING TO BASE MYSELF?

我真的想好久

我想不到答案

對自己生氣

然後再把怒氣變成不安的情緒

在心裡慢慢的發酵成為焦慮

直到

我覺得累

Maslow說過等基本需求滿足後會進到成長需求這一個層次

但我...

到底有沒有真的努力 make myself a better person?

還是我才是 biggest lair?

騙了自已也騙了別人

我......

i just wanna be a beter person.. and i want to be more spiritual and philological

but.. i can't win where i am or what i am..

i am... to be honest..

i feel... so...

"dishonored" by myself..

照片來源: 辦公室隨便來一張，素顏馬尾就是我上班時的樣子!

沒想到全被看光光了