That was an exciting week last week, so many things coming up. . .

I even picked up smoking to try to calm down.  

Things that are Good and not so good, I feel gratful for all. . .

 it was like a totally diffent life from I've always had for my whole life.

That was totally exciting. I can't help that my heart beats faster and faster.

A memorable trip to the art museum with Cat (I should have just kissed him there), going swimming alone, good chats with foreign friends and Abby, learning so many new things and ways about life.

At every Sunday's church meeting with Darrel and Victor, we sang those most beautiful hymns and read the very helpful lessons ("dreamer, leave thy dream for joyful waking.")

In the afternoon's Buddhist class, the lesson was great, too. "生死為曠野  煩惱為惡道  邊見為盜賊  癡盲迷正路"

I am certainly in a dream. . . and I don't want to wake up.

"you have to control the an evil thought in the frist instance ot it will control you in the second. . ."

It's maybe not totally an evil thought, but it can't be a very good one, either.

I didn't cancel it in the first instance, so I fell.

I hope it's not too late to put myself together again. . .

I keep thinking romantic about you and that makes me 'drunk.'

I can't think clearly and live clearly and I buy many things and spends more and more money.

I don't konw where am I going. . .

I am caught up in a dream where Modonna  keeps singing "Miles Away," . . . I feel so dizzy.

Miles Away Lyrics

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe those things that I had seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me, you were miles away

All my dreams they fade away
I’ll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can’t pretend to be someone else

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we’re miles away
You’re not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we’re at our best when we’re miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

When no one’s around then I have you here
I begin to see the picture, it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart,
When we’re six thousand miles apart

Too much of no sound
Uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough
When it’s long distance love

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we’re miles away
You’re not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we’re at our best when we’re miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

I’m alright, don’t be sorry, but it’s true
When I’m gone you’ll realize
That I’m the best thing that happened to you

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we’re miles away
You’re not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we’re at our best when we’re miles a-a-away…

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we’re miles away
You’re not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we’re at our best when we’re miles away

So far away
…

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P438tOVnjAw

Madonna, female strength, sober! 

Phil me or not. . .

a mi no importa?

Phil me!