隨性寫的小文章，看得懂英文的朋友請笑納。

《Searching for love》

I think I am the last person who is being hurry about searching for love. Everyone around me is pushing me or wishing me to find the one. I just don't know.

As many of you know that I had pretty fucked-up relationships before, and 2 of my exs were ranked as the top 5 players of my life by a very closed friend (See facebook if you have~!) Many people think I am picky, how can I not being picky?? I know I am not that great or have a lot of going on, but I won't let my little happy heart gets break again. Yeah, I know I have trusting issues now, "love like you never be hurt again" that just sounds easy to do. Also, as my love for Japan, that part cuts off a lot of Chinese men. Hi, don't say I don't love my own country because I just love Japan. Nothing can change my love for China, but there isn't anything wrong to love another country. (Don't say anything, friend B, you know I will never change), I am not saying that I have to be with a Japanese guy, at least the guy I will be end up with, will share the same feelings with me. He doesn't have to love Japan, but don't bull-shitting all the time and think I am a betrayer or something.

And, sorry American guys. No offense, but I just don't feel you guys. Your jokes aren't real funny and your style gonna be kidding me, and please take care of your body and hair, you look 20 years older than me but actually only 5.

Asian guys are the best.

But, sorry Chinese guys who are still in school for PH.D or only come to here for making money. You don't even know how to make your bed or cook a simple meal. Drinking, smoking and gambling are your habits; will you just take sometime to clean up your room and buy some new white socks?? And, please remember sex isn't only for your enjoyment, don't just in and out for 5 mins and think you did your part.

Oh, sorry Korean guys who think everything is about appearances. Label clothes, fast cars or make your nose taller don't impress me much. Gucci bags or Dior earrings don't work on me, and I don't want to deal with the mother-in-law who thinks she is the queen in the house.

Here comes Japanese guys. Sorry, you guys are fun and great, but some of your guys just want to be a boy forever. I am pretty good at taking care of others, however when you want money, sex, and also cry on my shoulder, but says "i don't want to give your any promise which I can't not make", I think that's called pussy. Yeah, please go chase your "dream" and be the man you want to be. I feel lucky to not be the one who change your diaper. Here is the news: if you want to be take cared, take care of others first.

Ok. Now you see what I am talking about. Searching for love? That sounds like a fairy tales. There is no handsome young prince who drives white BMW and ready to die for you; but there is old-fat-bald-just divorced with his third wife man who has a beach house at FL, town house at CT, mansion in NYC and ready to be retired. Oh by the way, he also has a black convertible Mercedes-Benz and 3 children who are in their 40s.

Searching for love? Are you kidding me? Ohh~~~ don’t show your sorry face and sympathy to me like I am an orphan from Africa. All the men are lucky that they don't have to deal with me. 'Cause that I am just a bitch who live like a lady. Good luck when you search for love, hope I won't be the one.