Never enter a relationship because you need a rescue.
I entered a relationship w him because he really loves me, because I needed someone to be there to support me, to take care of me.
I entered this relationship because I thought with his support I would have more faith to last, to try to stay here. It is so ridiculous...
Now it's broken apart, I want to go home again.
I have cut my own road, I've told my landlord I'm gona move out. Now I have to talk to the landlord again or find a house.
I feel I've wasted so much time... I've came such a long way and he said I'm depending on all those guys...I am owing all those guys that go after me.
I'm really sad about what he had said. I've came a long way, working so hard, received a lot of mistreatment from people. Yeah, guys did help me for a purpose but I didnt rely on anyone to give me money or give me food.
Now I feel bad for myself. I'm struggling here. No job, jumping from jobs to jobs, can't pay off my rent, oweing my bro money for bank loan, waitressing, doing part time jobs, trying to survive....
Ya I went out to dinner w guys, and they paid for my dinner.
Now my bf think I owe those guys something, I depend on those guys....
I feel so pathetic....