一個月前的今天,本以為可以過新生活,一切都會好順利..估唔到一個月後,可以咩都唔同晒

就係因為一顆唔服輸既好勝心,今日我又再証明自己係"得"既,不過我既好勝就為自己自找煩惱

放左兩星期假,有點懶,加上又落大雨,本來今朝想唔起身去2nd in,仲要塞車遲到tim,不過今次in我呢個係一個女人,係公司既MD,不過講野都幾倔,佢話會係三個人揀一個人做Project Engineer呢個post,雖然佢覺得我讀既完全match佢公司,但我好坦白同佢講我三年冇掂Engine,咩都唔記得晒lu,不過好奇怪,佢好似唔知係上次in我果個recommend我做Project Engineer,因為當初我係in Marketing Trainee架嘛..而且上次又話要stay大陸,今次又話唔係,只係有需要要travel

之後,因為覺得落雨濕濕好狼狽,加上下星期都返新工,冇時間2nd in,唔想俾自己咁多選擇,最後都冇去到Moulin Roty 見Purchasing Officer,雖然呢份可能係我最想做既野,不過佢既玩具唔係我buy果種lor

跟住,諗住同媽咪去買鑽戒,收到miss call,聽完voice mail就知大件事,Project Engineer真係請我,我打返俾個MD,佢一開口就叫我星期一返工,淨係講返工時間我知,跟住話其他野星期一再講,嘩....咁我咪好冇保障,我話轉頭覆佢...果刻心諗早知唔去in啦,Sanyo果邊我簽左約喇...用左五分鐘...講真,其實我係想做呢份多d,但我再細心諗左陣,如果星期一返到去先發覺唔對路咪太遲?最重要係呢個post一定要好dependent同aggressive,自問我唔係冇呢d條件,但我始終覺得自己仲係果個比較依賴既細路女,一時間要我去做呢個post,我反而覺得好大壓力,怕力不從心

而且我信緣份,既然Sanyo請左我先,又簽埋約,我唔好三心兩意
加上,一間公司既誠意好緊要,兩份都係上星期同一日去見,當初兩份都好有誠意請我,不過Sanyo既效率好快,每一次都係o係一個鐘頭內叫我2nd in同俾offer我,雖然只係assistant,而且做既野可能比較悶,人工亦冇Project Engineer咁高,但學唔學野係睇自己,我覺得係呢度前景會比較明朗,加上係大公司點都有d保障

Project Engineer果份雖然話自己係全球做filter既Top ten,除左返大陸仲有好多機會要出trip,但就因為誠意兩個字,我拒絕左
果日佢話如果請我做Project engineer會比我expected 既salary多少少,但到今日打黎,連請我兩個字都冇講,淨係叫我星期一返工,雖然我係鍾意呢份多d,但佢又咩都唔講,就咁叫我返工好唔得lor,我問佢人工佢又答我係我寫果個,即係冇多左啦

最後,我打返電話拒絕做project engineer果份,我只係想証明自己係"得"已經夠了