Try to pretend that you're okay, you're find
'n cover all the negative sides: temper, mood, feeling, thought, desire...
This is what everyone does everyday
Means what?
Means...
Human beings are born with evil nature <人性本惡>
Let's say...Animals are animals, even being well-educated

This week I've spent plenty time pondering
I did "PURE-ponder"
no books, no screen, no music, no eating...just lie down 'n think
"Would it be better not to do the social stuff?"
I know well that man can never live alone
but can I just do the very-social which I need for survival?
things like office talk, purchase talk, etc.
That would be definitely dull
but on the other side,
no happiness equals no pain
God is fair, isn't he?

I think of Kevin as usual
(when sth happens, I think of him, every now 'n then)
His nickname on-line is <本性孤獨>
A friend of us told me that Kevin can't stand loniness
but in those days we share, I saw him do little social
If we're not out together, he's alone in his place
Now I realize
he's really far far beyond me
Once he told me that compared to him, I got 1 year lag
I'm afraid the truth is 2 years 'n more

Would it be better?
Is it okay if I...