Besides, I consider that I must dosomething different in my life.

So, I exhausted all my effort to enter this institution.

During these two years, if someone asks mewhat is your greatest harvest?

I will answer that I face my lack of capability continuously.

Moreover, I need with honesty to accept my loss.

It is the most difficult part for me.

Sometime, I feel I fall out of all my confidence and bravery and involve in a deep depressive mood.

I ever complain about the unfair fortunes and I feel angry it just like someone gives me a big joke.

However, when I retrospect the detail of this life, I never regret for the original choice.

It trains me how to do a right thing and insist on myself notion.

I try to use the words to record this truggle in my heart during this period.