again feel the continous rush of competition
keep wondering what I've done for the past year
since 5.17.04, mypaper (sorta blog) has commenced to record my days as a theatrical practitioner/goer
however,accounting those articles, am I really maturer? or just what some ppl said: no matter where u go, the environment can't shape U, the essential spirit.
on the other hand, I indeed know my dreadly bad comfort zone has put me in a bad stance, overwhelming with desire of happiness only other than difficulties as lessons to be tougher and resilient.
neverthelss, remaining seeking higher positions and richness, isn't it redicilous? As far as I'm concerned, it's the bigerst misunderstanding human beings to their life.
As what my previous article mentioned, mankind barely realize what they have done and what they're convinced.
it's sooooo dangerous at least for me, if I called myself a favorer of Essentialism
the dialectics above have been stirring my head
I need action, resulotion and spirit.
so burn out to defeat myself and others.
Darwen's evolution is so cruel but real as well as blooding
meet ppl up in the hell every day
kill ppl in the heaven every day
vicous circle never ends
how about die out one day? extinguish my fellows!