I guess it's because I have been happy that's why it is so hard to let go just like that, I cant believe things would be too bad.

There is so much I wanna talk about with him, yet when I look at him the words wouldn't come, turned as a lump in my throat, and my heart swelled with anguish.

There are times when pain had almost been physical and I am worn out of trying, but I cant give up, not just yet.

What is Love about? Im not sure what I did is right ... what if this is all he can give and he would ever be the same?

Im gonna give it another try, hoping things would take a good turn, to prove that what we had was real, and I had not wasted time and effort. Changes dont come overnight, yet I hope he would show some signs of care soon before I get totally despaired and heartbroken.