Dad had an affair with someone in China, who plays mah-jong and likes shopping. I have heard their phone conversation several times when Dad was drunken. Today, Mom found the message in Dad’s phone and prove her imagination.

I didn’t know what I should/can do. I can’t see Mom’s feeling in her eyes and don’t know what she will do. She is such a tradtional and conservative woman. I need to be strong to be her support. If one day they really divorced, I think I will choose to move out and live with my Mom.

I know that I am afraid to fall in love with anyone because it might cause serious hurt. No one’s marriage can live happily forever. I don’t trust forever/true love in the world. In my heart, I have great fear for giving love and being love. Too many people live without happiness. I like to watch soft dramas, but I understand that there is no so-called ”prince and princess” stroy in real life.

I feel so vexed and can’t find one to discuss. Maybe just like purple, I feel too shame to tell anyone about this.