八百種稱呼

爬過了幽蘭

我才開始熟悉，不同比例的花瓣

轉變相當自然

解放的矜持

將不是最真誠的自白

我努力想得到證明，但並不想證明給誰看

因為一切早毀了

如果結果依然是痛得一目瞭然，我應該也沒那麼不習慣











最終的話，是要我放空

也許妳也知道，對我而言放手比提起勇氣放空還容易得多

妳常說，這就是妳

然而，是我還沒勇氣對妳說，

那就是我

妳要順著感覺走，但感覺算什麼

放棄了，才讓一切像個開始，這也不過是對自己說

感覺是自己的，別人頂多給了妳什麼，或是，被妳感染了什麼

但最痛苦的所得就是，當妳只擁有感受



妳開始懷疑，怎樣的情結會成為一個人努力的動力

當妳正奮發努力，甚至能感到對方也默默試著在努力

導致整件事誰該為誰圓場，成了感情的鐵証

結論是，一廂情願而已



因為無論多慎重的聲明，不曾被妳聽進心裡



最痛苦的所得就是，當妳只擁有感受

我該說
妳們人超好，所以想為大家好?
妳們心超軟，所以誰也放不掉?
妳們重感情，所以兩頭要?
還是妳們有能耐，所以兩頭燒?

did i say i care?
i did care. but at the time i set up nothing to insist all my feelings, i looked it like a terrible habit.
it’s not the problem of time; time is one of the affected reason as it used to be.
if you just can not overcome it then you should not offer before preparing.
no excuse, in kinds of relationship.
do we have the same dream? we work hard but turns on opposite way; is it becuase we’r too hurry? Or actually we both wait for the time, but on the other hand times are not enough for us to build something which may be good to us...
we try the ways, we solve all the problems between us, we communicate...
these are all the normal things people do.
.i don’t know if you have tried to understand me; if you did, maybe you fail till now.
we expect every thing develops natually, but it has never been like this.
I know you’re going to walk out, and i know you arrange much more spaces to let me in.
but you havn’t decided. You escaped; becuase you were dissapointed.