2009-03-07 03:47:44斌斌

”Cold” days

These weeks I am way busy than usual :(. I need time to make up homework assignments, prepare for finals, fitness and pray. I did not talk to Wenyan for sometime la. And we did not go home from church together as well. She seems very unhappy about it. I wish I can spend some more time with her. I miss her too, b/c I did know that she needs my support when she is sick :(. God Bless her.

This morning I have a dream. One of my psyc presentation partner somehow partner with a different person (that I also know) and then she make that person and I do the same work. I think is like picking which work is better, or having have more than one same paper can boot up her grades. The thing that I am focus in the dream is that I am lonely. Why cann't I do the same thing?... then another dream jumps ahead.
I working a project with a female partner (i dont' know her face). I try to teach her something in front of the computer screen. Later, she hold my head onto her chest. 3 second lapse, I pushed her away, said I have Wenyan only, I cannot be with you.

My second dream that i have interacted with a girl. I wonder what happen to me? Thank God, I did not get seduce by them.

Dear Jesus,
   Please prepare my way for you.
☆文炎~乖乖★ 2009-03-07 13:36:35

OK~ I understand you can’t with me b/c u are busy. yes. i am unhappy about it. BUT 我也习惯了。when u can’t with me, cold to me, my natural respond is to push u away too, and then although u invite me go out, but i don’t want to