After back from the hometown. I was not able to fall asleep easily for three nights. Lot of things come through my mind again. Cars and motorbikes passing by, people talk loud and shout down on the street, ambulance alarming all the way. I was tuning around on the bed trying to find a better position without working at all. I was struggling with insomnia. All the thoughts were crashing me down and keeping me awake. I knew the reason why. But I just can not help to throw them out of my mind. Because the another blood withdrawal date is approaching. All my worry will give me the answer after it. All the efforts in the past month that I have done will pay off or not. I am going to die now or soon and later.