Dear L,

It's hard for me to explain why I stopped signing myself popo.


For the time being, let's just say that it hurts too much to sign myself popo in emails.

You were right about one thing, though. That is roughly the time when we began to lose faith in our mutual understanding of each other.

But please do not blame yourself for not keeping in contact or anything like that.
We don't want blames.
What good does blaming do?
None at all.

As I said, in hindsight it would have been obvious to use this space when we began to experience all kinds of email problems. But neither of us thought of it. Perhaps it was just a matter of time.

The distance you had felt could have been the hollow I had felt.
But I would dread to hear you say "I don't care."

However, if that is what you need to do now, then I will remain silent for your sake.

Much has happened in my life.
Much has happened.

love, p