A few days ago I was woken up by Radio 4. Some music was on and it mingled into my early-morning dream. It was a piano or an orchestral (! I don't remember) piece but it sounded so much like a harmonic song I sang in the choir at someone's funeral (?), chord clashing into each other but making a mysterious but holy unison. I listened and listened and didn't want to wake up. I didn't want it to stop. By the end of it I found out it was something by Mahler, I wasn't even awake to listen well for the song title. Sadly, I won't be able to find this music unless I bump into it again. As with somebody.

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Yesterday, I bumped into my old MO Simon. He told me that Kevin was dying... I don't know what to think. I don't think I will write the rest here, it all seems too much to handle now.

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Well, I guess I'll end my note here.