2010-01-28 22:22:27frances
i get too nervous. wanna change myself
btw did i mention today that i *almost* failed the scales in orchestra because i couldn't hear the notes i was playing at all? thats why siew was like: man all of your notes are this close to being off key, but then again, they're not really the wrong note.
well,,,
i couldn't hear my notes because...
my heart was thumping too loud
LOL its actually kinda funny.
but i really wanna change how i get so nervous so easily. i need to gain confidence in myself. i always put myself down, but i know i am actually better than i say i am.
i tremble, literally shake, just before oral presentations.
i am super sensitive to the cold, and this adds to the trembling/shivering
my vibrato is from trembling, not from technique XD
i always claim my essays to be "sooo horribly bad" when i actually stayed up for 2 nights working on it.
i sometimes even tremble when i talk to teachers cause im afraid my mouth will let out some stupid impulsive words that the teacher doesnt want to hear lol
i dont get myself sometimes XD
whoa i have never done inner reflections before. this feels weird XDDDD
ahhh frances! me too, i always get sooo nervous sometimes, especially when pek wants us to sing individually :p
let's hope we both change then :) 2010-01-30 18:48:57