2004-01-06 15:52:29芙拉啦
【擁抱】
『Ｆｕｃｋ！！』
靠在Mondo原木質感的廁所牆上，喘了口氣。今晚的壓迫感實在太大了，讓她不得不想逃。沒有本錢就不要玩，她早該知道這樣的道理，就算是隻身在英國也不能給她任何逃避這一刻的理由，尤其是這一刻，在喝了三杯Turbo Shandies和三杯Vodka Red Bull的這一刻，身體快樂的神秘的嫵媚的柔軟的飄蕩，腦裡卻滲出絲絲苦澀的寂寞的軟弱的流淚的冷流的，這一刻。
她從來不該去招惹Nick的，早該在那天同學的昏暗房間裡，當大家都玩瘋了的時候，離開他軟膩嘴唇在肩上的吻，躲開他游移指尖在膝上的磨挲。『更不應該去倫敦找他！』果然除了灌啤酒，兩個人找不到更好的話題。而今天他來了，在一群認識的同學面前，一把摟住她的，那今晚因為只綁了件大布巾當上衣而露出的腰和裸露的背。雖然今天晚上他已不是第一個有這種動作的人。還有上次那個，朋友的朋友，那個有著極溫暖擁抱和柔軟嘴唇的Sam，『呵！』還好他的床單是粉紅色的，否則她還真會煞車不住，就往床上倒去。
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『What’s the matter with her?』They kissed and held each other in arms last time, after don’t know how many pints of beer. The cold in Greenwich made them hold each other as hard as to suck the other into one piece. Her lips are so soft and sweet. He has no idea why she is so changed tonight. Neither would he understand why she insisted to go home that night, cause she held him as she needed him like hell.
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看向鏡子。
她知道自己今晚夠亮的了。從她踏進Mondo，目光是都集中在她身上的。今天的outfit穿在金髮美女身上或許還沒有這麼大的效果，是她直垂腰際的烏亮長髮吧！那輕輕走動撩起的風與飛揚的髮絲，帶出的是男人們深沉的微笑，欠身讓出一些空間，讓她輕輕的，有意無意的和自己擦身，又或者，傾身附在她耳旁，噓聲說出：『妮號漂兩…』換來她的一聲巧笑回望。在她看到Nick和Sam之前她都是開心的，甚至驕傲的展示著自己的風情。這下可好，兩個都不想再見到面的人，偏偏都在今天自己特意性感的時候出現。唉，喝吧。這樣的夜晚需要酒精的催化，她需要舞動，需要釋放。
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『You are so beautiful tonight……』He hold her from the back when she’s ordering at the bar. She slips away and says hi and thanks. Her skin is still so soft. And her hair, her hair……『You smell so good, just had a shower?』『How would you know?』『Your hair……』Was he fascinating by her hair? Yes, definitely. He couldn’t forget the feeling that still stay in his memory, on his fingertip, that silky smoothly touch when his finger went through her hair. He never knew why she stopped that night. He could feel her eager as much as his. She just glanced at his bad, smiled, and said goodbye.
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她繼續喝著，繼續在舞池中央跳著，朋友們一個一個離開了，她還在跳著。酸甜的酒水在舌尖打滾，嚥下後升起的苦澀又被下一次的酸甜給淹沒。明亮的艷麗笑容被酒精渲染成迷濛傻笑。管它的呢！反正這將永遠是她一個人獨舞的舞池。不要過來吧不要過來吧不要過來吧！『讓我一個人好好跳支舞吧！』再點了一杯在Warwick叫做Purple，在Essex卻叫Snake bite的紫紅色甜膩黑莓啤酒，臉色被映的更紅了。『That’s an under’s drink, Nydia.』『What’s a postgraduate’s drink then? Guinness? Come on~~~』
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『I gotta go…Listen, Jeff, is she with anyone now?』『Ur…I don’t think so. I thought you had a great time that night. What happened?』『I don’t know… She is so changed… Well, thanks anyway. Don’t worry, I like her but it seems that we are not going anywhere……』『Ok, take care, Nick. Do you need a ride to North Station?』『It’s ok, I’ll take the cab.』
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『別再這樣了。』她心裡想。自己還是沒有辦法這樣玩的。衝動很容易，開心很容易，要醒來卻更是容易。轉身甩動長髮遮掩抹去兩顆小淚珠的動作，寂寞又怎麼樣？別再這樣需索擁抱和親吻了吧？因為淚水而晶亮的眼神流轉，視線反而因為洗滌而清明，嗯，該回家了吧？她看到Sam牽著一個女孩的手走出Mondo，呵，這樣也好。罪惡感莫名的少了些，腳步也輕快了起來。踮著跳著不讓鞋跟卡在first square的石板縫隙，明明酸極了的小腿，又彷彿舞動了起來。走下滿是野兔的Village Road，冷風把剛剛的酒都吹醒了。哀悼著近２０鎊卻只持續了兩小時效能的酒水錢，不能讓她在這段２０分鐘腳程的路上，減少一點寂寞。還是好想要一個，溫暖的擁抱，唉。
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She is still alone. He saw her on the cab. Why is that she rather be alone but kissed like she needed those kisses to live? He watches her walking, thousands of questions running through his head. Is she mysterious like what they said about Asian women, or it’s just her hair?
靠在Mondo原木質感的廁所牆上，喘了口氣。今晚的壓迫感實在太大了，讓她不得不想逃。沒有本錢就不要玩，她早該知道這樣的道理，就算是隻身在英國也不能給她任何逃避這一刻的理由，尤其是這一刻，在喝了三杯Turbo Shandies和三杯Vodka Red Bull的這一刻，身體快樂的神秘的嫵媚的柔軟的飄蕩，腦裡卻滲出絲絲苦澀的寂寞的軟弱的流淚的冷流的，這一刻。
她從來不該去招惹Nick的，早該在那天同學的昏暗房間裡，當大家都玩瘋了的時候，離開他軟膩嘴唇在肩上的吻，躲開他游移指尖在膝上的磨挲。『更不應該去倫敦找他！』果然除了灌啤酒，兩個人找不到更好的話題。而今天他來了，在一群認識的同學面前，一把摟住她的，那今晚因為只綁了件大布巾當上衣而露出的腰和裸露的背。雖然今天晚上他已不是第一個有這種動作的人。還有上次那個，朋友的朋友，那個有著極溫暖擁抱和柔軟嘴唇的Sam，『呵！』還好他的床單是粉紅色的，否則她還真會煞車不住，就往床上倒去。
＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿
『What’s the matter with her?』They kissed and held each other in arms last time, after don’t know how many pints of beer. The cold in Greenwich made them hold each other as hard as to suck the other into one piece. Her lips are so soft and sweet. He has no idea why she is so changed tonight. Neither would he understand why she insisted to go home that night, cause she held him as she needed him like hell.
__________________________________________________________________
看向鏡子。
她知道自己今晚夠亮的了。從她踏進Mondo，目光是都集中在她身上的。今天的outfit穿在金髮美女身上或許還沒有這麼大的效果，是她直垂腰際的烏亮長髮吧！那輕輕走動撩起的風與飛揚的髮絲，帶出的是男人們深沉的微笑，欠身讓出一些空間，讓她輕輕的，有意無意的和自己擦身，又或者，傾身附在她耳旁，噓聲說出：『妮號漂兩…』換來她的一聲巧笑回望。在她看到Nick和Sam之前她都是開心的，甚至驕傲的展示著自己的風情。這下可好，兩個都不想再見到面的人，偏偏都在今天自己特意性感的時候出現。唉，喝吧。這樣的夜晚需要酒精的催化，她需要舞動，需要釋放。
＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿
『You are so beautiful tonight……』He hold her from the back when she’s ordering at the bar. She slips away and says hi and thanks. Her skin is still so soft. And her hair, her hair……『You smell so good, just had a shower?』『How would you know?』『Your hair……』Was he fascinating by her hair? Yes, definitely. He couldn’t forget the feeling that still stay in his memory, on his fingertip, that silky smoothly touch when his finger went through her hair. He never knew why she stopped that night. He could feel her eager as much as his. She just glanced at his bad, smiled, and said goodbye.
__________________________________________________________________
她繼續喝著，繼續在舞池中央跳著，朋友們一個一個離開了，她還在跳著。酸甜的酒水在舌尖打滾，嚥下後升起的苦澀又被下一次的酸甜給淹沒。明亮的艷麗笑容被酒精渲染成迷濛傻笑。管它的呢！反正這將永遠是她一個人獨舞的舞池。不要過來吧不要過來吧不要過來吧！『讓我一個人好好跳支舞吧！』再點了一杯在Warwick叫做Purple，在Essex卻叫Snake bite的紫紅色甜膩黑莓啤酒，臉色被映的更紅了。『That’s an under’s drink, Nydia.』『What’s a postgraduate’s drink then? Guinness? Come on~~~』
＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿＿
『I gotta go…Listen, Jeff, is she with anyone now?』『Ur…I don’t think so. I thought you had a great time that night. What happened?』『I don’t know… She is so changed… Well, thanks anyway. Don’t worry, I like her but it seems that we are not going anywhere……』『Ok, take care, Nick. Do you need a ride to North Station?』『It’s ok, I’ll take the cab.』
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『別再這樣了。』她心裡想。自己還是沒有辦法這樣玩的。衝動很容易，開心很容易，要醒來卻更是容易。轉身甩動長髮遮掩抹去兩顆小淚珠的動作，寂寞又怎麼樣？別再這樣需索擁抱和親吻了吧？因為淚水而晶亮的眼神流轉，視線反而因為洗滌而清明，嗯，該回家了吧？她看到Sam牽著一個女孩的手走出Mondo，呵，這樣也好。罪惡感莫名的少了些，腳步也輕快了起來。踮著跳著不讓鞋跟卡在first square的石板縫隙，明明酸極了的小腿，又彷彿舞動了起來。走下滿是野兔的Village Road，冷風把剛剛的酒都吹醒了。哀悼著近２０鎊卻只持續了兩小時效能的酒水錢，不能讓她在這段２０分鐘腳程的路上，減少一點寂寞。還是好想要一個，溫暖的擁抱，唉。
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She is still alone. He saw her on the cab. Why is that she rather be alone but kissed like she needed those kisses to live? He watches her walking, thousands of questions running through his head. Is she mysterious like what they said about Asian women, or it’s just her hair?