I am not seeking pain.
I am not seeking heartache.
I am not seeking a wall of trophies.
I am not seeking envy.

I am not still a beginner.
I am not still green.
I am not cloaked in denial.
I am not drowning in delusion.

But I am a seeker.
But I am, at heart, a lover.
And I am at times, a loner.
Though I am always a dreamer.

And for a time I was not a believer.
And for a time I did not open up.
And for a time I asked for no answers.
And for a time I let go of the truth.

But believe me, I am still trying.
And believe me, I'll keep on giving.
And believe me I still hold some hope out.
Cause believe me, that's just how I am.


~~Fiddler 08/30/2001