考完NT II
好depress......

尋日o係屋企溫o左成日, 就食o左成日, 勁stress~~~~!!!! 我一stress, 就一係唔食o野, 一係就勁食o野ga la... 我o既eating action, 簡直就係一種O/C, 根本不能自己~~ 十一點起身, 食o左一大碗米粉(平時只係煮一個, 今日係煮o左兩個...), 四份一斤菜, and then飲o左N杯茶, 跟住就食o左兩件鳳凰卷, 三條merci chocolate, 兩粒糖, 一大碗牛油粟米... 到o左六點幾, 發覺自己好有問題, 好stressful, 但又stop唔到eating impulses... 於是走o左去瞓o左一陣. 瞓o左唔夠一個鐘, 就俾電話嘈醒... 起身時七點幾, 本打算唔食o野ga la, 點知又走o左去煮公仔麵...... 呀~~~~~ 我唔想ga~~~~~ 好辛苦ar~~~~~

到o左今日, 一打開份卷, 見到"laxatives" & "hepatic encephalopathy", 當堂黑面.....
"山埃王" 竟然唔 "山埃"
"妖后" 竟然 "雷聲大, 雨點小", 出埋d "細雞o野"......
hepatic encephalopathy, 其實係tip o左會出, 但我今日返到學校libra溫時, 我竟然係...睇唔明~~~!?! HOW COME~~~!!?!!?!?! 雖則我平時唔係extreme smart o既學生, 但我真係無諗過自己o係hepatic encephalopathy面前, 會係蠢得如此徹底...... 鳴鳴鳴........ 我點解會睇唔明ga......??????

我有溫書的~~~
我溫o左勁耐thyroidectomy, 但佢竟然只係出o左一條mc~~~
我溫o左DM 全部nursing interventions, 尤其係DM foot, 但佢竟然出DM community health education~~~~
我溫O左I.O., 但佢竟然一題都無出......
仲有好多好多.....
幸好溫得好痛苦o既AP resection---abdominal wound, perineal wound & colostomy care 有出ja~~~ o個o度攞唔足十二分, 都起碼有十分掛~~~ =3=...

唉...... 信錯"妖后", 唔夠信"山埃王"......
no matter from psychological view or sociological view, 人都總係會tends to rationalize 自己o既行為與及過失. 但到o左呢個moment, 我只好承認:

係我懶

若果我有花多d時間去溫, 根本就唔駛理會d tips 中定唔中......

o黎緊十二個星期, 唔好俾我見到"山埃王" & "妖后". 我唔想見到佢o地.....!!!!!!
返到屋企, 我要哀悼呢個exam, 要發洩~~!! 同樣, 都係食o野... 食KFC, 食朱古力撻, 飲氣水~~~ 食飽就SLEEP~!!!!

瞓醒o左個人無咁depress, 但今晚都係要apply cooking therapy---整cheese cake~!

見到個肚腩, 我就想...扣喉.....

o黎緊仲有三科, 最後一科o既mental health我有信心, 但星期五o既patho & 星期二o既NT III就...... =3=
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無諗過呢兩日打電話o黎關心我o既, 會係------你......

仲要係只得你......

唔要諗點解你會突然對我咁好
唔想想得太多...
唔想想得太遠......