I’ve already forgot when is the last time...
In fact, I thought I would never be like this anymore
But I did it again now...
So pathetic...

Thank you for not asking me "why" when you meet me as I also can’t figure out what is exactly going on...

Human being is forgetful. They always forget the good things that the others do for them.
Human being is good at memorizing. They always remember who and how the others treat them bad.
The strength of human beings is to hurt people around them, especially to the beloved ones...

If people must love one another until they get hurt, then I wanna say:
"That’s already too much to me. If I can choose,I will choose not to... "

Difficult to concentrate. Fortunately, I can get out from my duty within these two days.

Wanna forget it, forget this, forget that...

Wanna get rid of it, get rid for this, get rid of that...

Or I should get rid of myself...

I thought I know my destiny and I thought it’s God’s plan.
But I doubt it now.
Is it really my "destiny"? Or it’s just a shadow of my life
------ my entire life

Nothing I can do and nothing I wanna do.

If I’m dumb, there will be only God can hear my voice, my prayer.
If I’m deaf, I can only hear God’s voice and His guide in my life quietly.
If I’m blind, the only thing I can see would be God’s kind face and His smile to me.
How good would it be if I’m deaf, dumb and blind.

Everything is just twisted, altered and malfunctioning.


Sorry for being unable to accomplish my duty/promise...
I also don’t wanna to be a "bad role model"
I hate that too...


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Finally, tears round down...