i feel shit I feel shit i feel shit i feel shit why do i feel so crap??

because i've been a very bad girl lately

because i've been a very irresponsible girl lately

because i've been letting people down lately

because i've been letting myself down lately

because i haven't cared lately

because i'm such a bad example of myself lately

because i could be so much better

becuase i deserve to be treated by myself better

because i deserve to face my true desires

because i should grow up and stop being so immature and annoying

becuase i should stop trying so hard to be someone i'm not

because i need to chill out

because i need to be secure about myself

because i haven't eben doing all that, i feel shit i feel shit i feel shit

and i miss you dearly hilary

more than ever

i miss myself when i was with you

i was so good, wasn't i?

i was happy and content, and i was confident

because i had you

now i have nothing, i am nothing

i am useless without you

i am pointless without you

i am ugly without you

i am disgusting without you

i am vain without you

i am light, insignificant without you

but where do i find someone like you again?

would i fall in love again?

would i be great again?

would i smile again?

would i laugh whole heartedly again?

would i kiss someone and feel the same intensity again?

life is so disappointing, without you

but i need to move on and forget the past

i just can't do it, i'm weak and pathetic

i'm pale and i'm stuck here

i feel like crying

why can't i just let it go and be strong?

i just want to run away from my problems

how do i live on like this, without you?

what is the point of living on like this?

god, please give me one more chance, i beg you so bad.