There's nothing I got except the pay, and I deserve to have the money as I work so hard and long.
Maybe some will say I still learn something from the work, sure, I do and I pay my effort on it, either.
Or I could imagine that most people would say the most valuable thing is the experience I have been abroad. Is that really so?
The mornings I woke up in December,
I suddenly realize how much I have been losing during the period I stayed where I stand in.

Am I egoistical ? It may be in some ways ?!
Am I complaining ? Could be possible ?
Complain about myself.

What did not kill me but made me stronger?
I would not said that but it is always the proud willpower of my own.
The last several days in the year, I feel guilty somehow.

Being alone is a very good opportunity to develop yourself.
What have I done for myself?