每天都活在理智與情感的Battle中

很辛苦

每當掛念你，想找你的時候

腦袋就會找一些屬於你與她的畫面把自己打壓下去

這似乎是對我決心離開最有效的方法

就像不斷向自己的傷口灑鹽

因為我怕自己忘記了痛，又再次回轉

我的腦袋每分鐘都在重覆操作這種模式

就在射戰機一樣，每當有一些心軟回轉的念頭出現

大腦就會毫不留情、緊張快捷地將它打落

害怕它落地生根

費洛依德的Structural Model 今次十分用得著在我身上

Id 及 Ego 在拔河，或硬或軟的叫我學習看真實的世界

不要蹓躂在自欺欺人的駝鳥世界

這會否演變成Personal Disorder?

Reference:

THE ID

' The id is based on our pleasure principle.  In other words, the id wants whatever feels good at the time, with no consideration for the reality of the situation.  When a child is hungry, the id wants food, and therefore the child cries.  When the child needs to be changed, the id cries.  When the child is uncomfortable, in pain, too hot, too cold, or just wants attention, the id speaks up until his or her needs are met.

 The id doesn't care about reality, about the needs of anyone else, only its own satisfaction.  If you think about it, babies are not real considerate of their parents' wishes.  They have no care for time, whether their parents are sleeping, relaxing, eating dinner, or bathing.  When the id wants something, nothing else is important.

THE EGO

The ego is based on the reality principle.  The ego understands that other people have needs and desires and that sometimes being impulsive or selfish can hurt us in the long run.  Its the ego's job to meet the needs of the id, while taking into consideration the reality of the situation.