2003-09-02 20:23:54尚未設定
期待已久的----托福成績0806
雖然托福的成績「理論上」是三個禮拜之後就會寄到，事實上卻讓我等了好久。就算他是寄到妳家，再由你媽媽寄給我，也不該讓我等兩個多月吧！
然而，收到成績單時，我卻希望我不曾收到過。
五百九十分。這難道就是我努力這麼久的成果？虧我當時還信誓旦旦地說，要考過六百分，我算是徹底地讓你失望了。這樣的我實在不敢再與你聯絡，怕你無意間問及我的成績，你一定會笑笑地鼓勵我，「沒關係，快破六百嘍，再考他個一次！」但我知道妳還是失望的。
我可能真該覺醒，我的程度根本沒那麼好，要考上六百分還要再花上一番努力吧！又或者，這就是我了！遇到重要時刻常常不濟事！這樣的我怎麼去談未來給你幸福？我該不會只能窩在台灣，出不去了吧？
Theoretically the TOEFL score report card will be sent within three weeks, but it kept me waiting for a long long time! Even if it was sent to your home in Taipei, and then sent by your mom, it shouldn’t have kept me waiting for so long…
However, I wish I hadn’t received anything when I received the report card.
Five hundred and ninety. Is this what I had been working for? It was I that swore I will score over six hundred, and I guess I totally let you down now. I am afraid of calling you even more. OF course you will say something to soothe me with a smiling voice: “It’s ok. You are almost six hundred. Try again!!!” I still know you will be disappointed.
Maybe I should have come to know that I was that good. I need to make awful effort to get over six hundred, and maybe I will be always like that!! When faced with the key point, I am always the loser!! How can I possibly talk about giving you happiness? I might probably spend my life here, struggling, without a chance to reach out the world all through my life!!
然而，收到成績單時，我卻希望我不曾收到過。
五百九十分。這難道就是我努力這麼久的成果？虧我當時還信誓旦旦地說，要考過六百分，我算是徹底地讓你失望了。這樣的我實在不敢再與你聯絡，怕你無意間問及我的成績，你一定會笑笑地鼓勵我，「沒關係，快破六百嘍，再考他個一次！」但我知道妳還是失望的。
我可能真該覺醒，我的程度根本沒那麼好，要考上六百分還要再花上一番努力吧！又或者，這就是我了！遇到重要時刻常常不濟事！這樣的我怎麼去談未來給你幸福？我該不會只能窩在台灣，出不去了吧？
Theoretically the TOEFL score report card will be sent within three weeks, but it kept me waiting for a long long time! Even if it was sent to your home in Taipei, and then sent by your mom, it shouldn’t have kept me waiting for so long…
However, I wish I hadn’t received anything when I received the report card.
Five hundred and ninety. Is this what I had been working for? It was I that swore I will score over six hundred, and I guess I totally let you down now. I am afraid of calling you even more. OF course you will say something to soothe me with a smiling voice: “It’s ok. You are almost six hundred. Try again!!!” I still know you will be disappointed.
Maybe I should have come to know that I was that good. I need to make awful effort to get over six hundred, and maybe I will be always like that!! When faced with the key point, I am always the loser!! How can I possibly talk about giving you happiness? I might probably spend my life here, struggling, without a chance to reach out the world all through my life!!