2004-01-29 22:23:56尚未設定

找不到妳

我總算完全了解,關於妳的優點缺點,我有了全新的解讀!妳的優點是你真的關心我,妳其實真誠地對待每一位妳認識的人,但是你對我特別關心。而且,你不怕讓我知道,我是特別的那一個,妳完完全全的讓我知道,你對我的愛是與眾不同的,完全不怕我會看輕妳,或是不珍惜妳。妳知道我不會,就好像我知道你不會一樣。

妳是唯一相信過我的女生,而我到頭來卻讓你失望,好了,答案揭曉了,我真的是不值得相信!真的很抱歉,當妳說出「我們真的不適合再在一起」時,我並沒有想到這一點,我應該挽留、我應該留些餘地、我應該留些時間讓我和妳思考,但我當時做的,只是默默的答應而已…而我天生就是沒有辦法拒絕妳的任何請求的…

已經過了十個月了,你是否還好呢?你知道我又要被調去台南及屏東嗎?妳會不會找不到我呢?無意之間,我發現我竟然還背得出妳的電話,這是國際電話,一次要背好幾碼的!不知道是否要打電話給你,又不知道我號碼記得對不對,唉!我的英文已經好久沒有講了…

練習了好幾遍之後(大概一個小時),我終於還是拿起了電話,響了一聲、兩聲、八聲,怎麼都還沒有人接,多倫多應該是晚上吧!

電話那一端終於有了回應,一個女孩的聲音︰Hello?…

Finally I understood. About your good and bad, I had a totally new interpretation. You are good because you care about me. Actually you care about everyone I had a whole lot of it!! You’re not afraid of letting me know, that I am the one for you, not worrying about me looking down on you or taking it for granted. You know I won’t as much as I know you.

I are the only girl that ever trusted me, and I ended up disappointing you! Ok, well, that only proves one thing, I am not trust-worthy! How sorry I am that I didn’t think this way before we decided to break up. When you say ”we shouldn’t be together anymore”, I should cry a little, I should tell you to stay with me, I should have made it a break, not a break-up! But the best I could do is acquiesce. I am so unable to say no to you, even this time, and I am born this way!

It’s been ten months. I wonder how you are. Do you know I will be transferred to Tainan and Ping-Tong again? Suddenly I was surprised to find me reciting your phone number, which is a long, international call. Wondering whether I should call you, wondering if I am right about the number, and I haven’t practiced my English for a long long time…

I finally picked up the phone, and the phone went ring, ring,…..ring…still ringing…it should be at night in Toronto.

A girl picked up the phone….”Hello?”