2005-06-13 08:58:06能醫不自醫白勺社工

reach camp finally.......

Jun 10 2029
Finally, reach camp n kinda met e other staff. So far so good, actually, not v. bad, but not v. good. Anyway, half of e time was wasted thou, fm yesterday reached camp at 4pm, wait till nite going out for supper, luckily met sb nice who gave me a ride back to camp, no need to waste time waste money watching ppl drink n play pool. Typical American, tank top, mini skirt, flirting ard in bar, drinking alcohol, playing pool, tried their best to show their bodies, even to those uncles!? I kept myself alone again, actually, those things weren急 that hard to open up. But I just bad in everything for a little bit, my language, my interest in drinking, my pool skill, also my budget on spending $ on this uninterested stuff, that旧 y everything added up tat I would rather to keep myself autistic. Wt e hell m I doing here? I hv e thought again, y m I so stupid keep putting myself in tis situation? No fds, no fun, no $, dunno??. ai!! Wanna die so much!!

Today finally training starts, a little bit better, at least got sthg to do n met all e staff. Luckily there r some new ones n old ones, wt I mean is there r first time working in tis camp n r also mature, at least not those under 20. I met sb like Sarah so much, oh, I missed her, I wish Tina would be like Sarah n treat me well n be kind to me. So far I really dun think there旧 other staff I wanna hang out w/ or would be nice to me. AI?.. not even the camp director!! I tot Camp Lincoln wasn急 tat good, but now I noe its v. gd already, e lakefront, e camp environment, e senior staff. Here, everything seems so unorganized, luckily finally I hv a little bit idea how e places r located, but I was surprised tat even e camp director couldn急 even dare to pretend welcoming me, e associate director is terrible, oh no, e only gd thing so far I could think of is e food, free supply every meal. I hope I can hv fun for tis week training. I bet e time would be a lot better once e kids come, I hope they r easy to get along w/ n would bully me, cos they r grade 8/9 already, ie. 13/14 yrs old?! Ai, dunno, finally bought a phone card n called home, but dun really think I was welcomed. AH??so boring, so sleepy, still got jet lag?! Everyday ard 7pm feel so sleepy already, nthg to do can only go to bed, I hv no choice though, hopefully days after would hv more things to do n more fun. Add oil, be strong, OD!!

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