In fact,
the person who eager to destroy me the most
is myself.

No one would desire to hurt Crystal as me.

It is hard to tell that
how much I hate myself.

Even though I do really want to
LOVE Crystal......


I may dare not to suicide,
however,
it is easy for me to
ABUSE myself.


I feel MORTAL pain.


These emotions keep driving me crazy.


And I feel more SUFFERING by days......