now is 2:33 am
i am studying child psy and listening music on the net
today is my first day alone la..
feeling....
not too ok
just like a idiot hang around and a bit lost direction
but i hope will be better ......
may be just can't adapt it suddenly la
feeling alone and lonely gar
although i am the one who give up
i hope this decision is ok for me la......
i dun know a =(
i afraid i will regret..i dun know why a
but my heart is nearly have explosure
in fact, these days really unhappy gar
many things need to handle and think...
better alone la

well.....today after lunch
i went to lib, study for a while
but my mind can't totally concentrate
may be i see the print work la...
then gigi found me la
then we talked for a while la
and then went to eat sth
and hang around...
didn't study la

then went to the court at 715 a
and till 10:30 la.....

then have dinner la....
um..okla
feeling not so gd...a bit uncomfortable and wanna leave lor
but lastly i didn't go la
i can't be like that gar ma.....
i told myself need to be positive

then back home lu.....it's already 1215

watch tv, listen music
2am u sleep lu

and i just called u and said gdnite la
ng g why i do this
just wanna do...

now need to be tough lu
i know this stage is hard gar la...
no matter tim......dou hai hard and harsh gar la

suen la
i need to carry on..........

cynthia ..... =(

mavis....u tell me what can i do
should i listen to u once again?


ai.........cry cry cry
so sun fu ....