N called
its unusual that he called
cuz these days we tend to talk to each other by text or by mail
so he asked me where im going
i said, a house party
he said, with whom
i said, yilin
i forgot wat he said, but its sth negative
so i said, come on, ive heard ur consistent effort of asking her out
he said, she said that? wat do u think?
i said, whatever nathan
he said no, its not whatever, and then of course he denied it
i really didnt wanna hear his bullshit anymore
i just gave some 冷笑 and then some閒話家常
he said, are u going to stay at the house party all nite
i said, no, but i dunno where we are going afterwards, we’ll start from there
he said, well, we’re at soho grand and will go to manor later, lets keep in touch
i said, ok

so thats our conversation
of course we didnt ”keep in touch” afterwards
and of course i knew where we were going after the house party

we went to cain and then went to bungalow 8
we had so much fun
cain is my favorite!!!

all i wanna say is
life without N is so much better
i start to hear, to feel
i start to realize
I AM ME