06/09/2005

和朋友在bar看球賽
11點多
N竟然傳簡訊來
問我在幹嗎
我有點嚇到
cuz i thought he's supposed to date another girl

我說我在bar跟我朋友看籃球賽
本來還滿高興想說他還有想到我
後來他問我
are you going out tonite?
我說
i think im going to hang out with my friends here a little bit and then im heading home. Are you having a nice party over there?
我想說他竟然會問我有沒有要出去
應該是要找我的意思
所以我結束後就傳給他
Im done here. Where's your party, Im going to crash it. ha
好阿好阿
沒回
就是我不能去的意思
and 想也知道是為什麼


ㄟ 那重點是什麼
你如果只是要問聲好
就我已經跟你講我在幹嗎了阿
幹嗎還問我要不要出去

那我跟你說我要去找你
你又不要
那你是怎樣
問好玩的就對了

那如果我跟你說我要出去
你又要說什麼
媽的 早知道跟你說
我要去clubbing like crazy
看你會說什麼

我脾氣真的好好
竟然讓你這樣對我
I'll see how much i can take
and how long I can stand
I've been learning not to expect anything from you as you wish
but what would it be when I no longer expect anything from you?


我的心 早就碎了
我只是用我殘餘的心在喜歡著你
你就硬要踐踏那我拾不起的碎片
你就盡情的踐踏吧
我倒想看看我可以撐到何時
我可以呆到什麼樣的程度


U are so worried that I would be too attached to you
I dont understand why you are so worried about it
Havent you noticed that Ive never called you?
I would rather wait for ur msg and be so anxious that i wanna shoot myself than call you or text u whenever I think of you
Ive never been a stalker
the one whos hurt by being attached to you is me ..MOI.. not you
U are not the one who's affected
why are u so worried? u tell me.

why keep telling me or implying me that you cant be my bf and u r dating many girls
havent u hurt me enough?
我無法跟一個我不怎麼喜歡的人date
如果你想要我不attach to you
我連跟你hang out都無法
所以我的attach
我自己面對
我對你的濫情
我選擇視而不見

我試著玩你的遊戲
我真的都不吵你
我等著你找我

請問一下
你今天沒有要找我
問我要去哪裡幹嗎
你告訴我

查勤嗎
高興了沒
吊我胃口嗎
好玩嗎

我很想大喊我受夠了
我很像大喊我不想再理你

但我知道
我做不到



永遠贏不了的ｃ....