Sometimes I wish I went to your office that day
gave you back your stuff
and asked you to GO FUCK YOURSELF

Im not fine. Im not fine at all.
And this is definitely the first time I cant cry out loud
I know crying will make me feel better
But I jsut cant. I have tears rolled down my cheek
But I cant cry
Cuz Im so afraid that I'll be torn apart if I cry

So Ive tried so hard to calm myself
Ive hidden my sorrow
Ive tried to be strong
Ive told myself its not about me, its about u
its ur loss, not mine
theres no reason I cant let go

"He talked about you like nothing"
"He didnt repect you"
"You are just one of his girls"
"If you go back to him, they would think this girl has no pride"

All these words, which supposed to help me get over you
pushed me deeper to the hell of sorrow
When Im trying to be tough, trying to get over you, trying to brainwash myself that nothing between us was real, Im hurting myself at the same time, and it really really hurts
The moment I take you out of my head, I cut down a piece of my heart

A friend said" its another rainy day, so nasty"
I suddenely realized that sunny days or rainy days dont really make the difference to me now
My computer crashed, no music
It doesnt really matter to me now either

nothing really matters now