I have been withering from this deep sorrow and painful grief,

When will I fall like an autumn leaf?

I have lost my way and cannot stay strong,

Since you were gone, I don't know where I belong.

Counting the remaining days I have on earth,

I try to recall your merriment and mirth.

And sitting there longing for all the yesterdays,

Missing our funny chat and your gentle understanding ways.

A warm memory might shed light in the dark,

But it cannot ease my pain, instead plunges my heart and left a mark.

I look around and I'm still alone,

The pain has grown and grown.

The bitter cold sadness had consume me,

Like I'm battling the storm at the angry sea.

There is no way to fill the void and need,

There is no way to replant the lovely seed.

Looking at the picture of your smiling face in my computer room,

For a short moment, it brushes away the gloom.

Bring back memories of the laughter and all that you did,

And your honest, caring and loving spirit.

I have been reading all the cards you had given,

And all the words' special meaning I had forgotten.

How can I be so careless for what you gave me,

Feeling awful for being such a dummy.

When I first visited you at Sacred Heart,

It finally hit me, we're really apart.

Tried to envision you are happy across that sea,

Will I be able to join you, will you be waiting for me?