There are always days that you just do not feel relaxed on most of the things.

Unfortunately I have been experiencing quite stressful days recently. Shit job, loads of studies to catch up, and the big question of ’to stay or not to stay afterwards’.

I have worried about this 10 months ago and it not only did happen but also got more complicated. Things are not as easy after Auctionicity merged with Auctioning4u, in terms of obtaining a work permit.

Also the self doubts about my capability in a competative environment like London where I do not have the advantages of the languages used. In the meantime, there are loads of opportunities for the creative jobs in Taiwan or Asia. Do I really want to sarcrify all these for a place where I do not really feel like home?

Loz has been really supportive and sweet, telling me that no matter what we will not seperate and he is willing to give up things here and find a job in Asia if needed.
I feel I’ve never been loved so much like this by someone other than my family, and I do wanna marry him, at some point.

I have fallen behind my study schedule and have working too hard for a job which I do not see the future. Guess I just need to put up with this until I get my work permit and visa to stay here. And from that point, I probably have more choices for my career and my future.

I love you Loz. You are the best thing in my life.

Picture is the ’new receptionist’ of Autioning4u. Actually he is for auction as well.