2005-03-29 11:15:02藍色美人魚
Fake Happiness

I should be very happy, at least for one or two days, but my happiness like a shooting star--flying through the sky and disappearing at the same time. Pretty, but short.
Happiness with excited screaming, nothing can compare with, but worse than having water to drink when you are thirsty. That's pure happiness, pure satisfaction.
My happiness is sort of a lie, lying to myself. It doesn't qualify the name of happiness, just an illusion of a fake image.
I know, I'm not good enough....
I know, I'm not beautiful enough....
I know, I'm not tall enough....
I know, I'm not qualified enough....
I know, I'm not sweet enough....
I know, I'm not considerate enough....
I know, I'm not ladylike enough....
I know, I'm not careful enough....
I know, I'm not caring enough....
I know, I'm not confident enough....
I know, I'm not listening enough....
I know, I'm not obedient enough....
I know, I'm not like a doll enough....
I know, I'm not ................
What else do you want to know about me?
I know I'm not happy enough....
I am me, myself, nothing can be changed. It's just me, not someone else.
It's me, the naughty me. I just wanna be myself....
Happiness with excited screaming, nothing can compare with, but worse than having water to drink when you are thirsty. That's pure happiness, pure satisfaction.
My happiness is sort of a lie, lying to myself. It doesn't qualify the name of happiness, just an illusion of a fake image.
I know, I'm not good enough....
I know, I'm not beautiful enough....
I know, I'm not tall enough....
I know, I'm not qualified enough....
I know, I'm not sweet enough....
I know, I'm not considerate enough....
I know, I'm not ladylike enough....
I know, I'm not careful enough....
I know, I'm not caring enough....
I know, I'm not confident enough....
I know, I'm not listening enough....
I know, I'm not obedient enough....
I know, I'm not like a doll enough....
I know, I'm not ................
What else do you want to know about me?
I know I'm not happy enough....
I am me, myself, nothing can be changed. It's just me, not someone else.
It's me, the naughty me. I just wanna be myself....