Uneventful day, with AMC contest which gave me a hard time. Watched badminton team B. It was cute watching them practicing postures for 10 minutes. Haha hope they improve and kickass sometime. Although, some can't really serve..... STILL, had fun feeding clears to team b girl.

MAUREEN, i'm gonna train you rawr. Jk haha not good enough.
But don't call me bossy when i tell you stuff :D it's cause 我想你improveyou know? Your bangs are so cute HAHAHAHA. Like when you were playing iwas like :D QT! Chao ji ke ai.

Haha gossomdochi love :) korean.

So right now, I'm just sitting on my desk now, watching the time go to 11;04, doing absolutely nothing productive except for doing college matchmakers and math (no progress at all), listening to the thunder roar while the raindrops drum my window gently. It's pretty.

But sometimes, I feel like an uncontrollable rebel.

Why do we have to learn the things we're taught at school? Like polar coordinates in Pre-calc. It gives me a huge headache, and I don't get half of what the teacher tells us to do. But since these subjects and units determine what we'll get for our final "Grade," we just begin to mindlessly, mechanically copy down notes on the white board, and unconsciously nod at the teacher to show that we understand. As if.

Is all this studying really gonna pay off? This one grade which determines my future, and BAM, it calculates which college I'll get into, or which career i'll succeed in? Numbers shouldn't matter, and yet, statistics, SAT scores, time, countdowns, they're all numbers that make us feel uneasy, eager, wrathful. Are this numbers really a representative of what we are? of who we are?

Numbers don't account for personalities. The ways we color our white canvas of our lives. Numbers are just mere things that attempt to define us. But it really doesn't matter. I don't like to be judged by one score, constantly being compared by other people who have "higher standards of academics," while their personalities are disgusting and immoral.

People who are hypocrites should just stop. They should stop smiling at me, acting like they love me. When I know it's obviously not the case. It's most likely the opposite. I'd rather be treaetd honestly. I'd be hurt, but I can be mean back right? People who do activities to pack their resumes should cut it out. They can say I'm doing the same. But guess what, I actually enjoy what I do for a highschool life.

I feel dreamy. I'm not angry as I sound like in my post right now. I just wanted to talk deep.
Someone msn me if they want to talk.

I want to go to china cup. I want to... be in apac.
that's it, i'm owning tmr's practice.