isn't it such an obsession to have a significant others???
when most of the people around you seem to be attracted to you, you just want the one that you can't even touch and tell all other fools to save their charms. When most of others are appreicating your unique character, you blindly chase that somebody who barely knows you, and you expect to take the chance to crash and burn.
at this point, seeing your soul, feeling your spirit, are just overshadowed by superficial thing.

the world seems to loss its balance, yet it's been kept in a way.
when we try to cheer life by quoting some French cliche "life is beautiful" we are actually bearing lots of pain on our asses, life doesn't work the way we want, and we know that well. we still eat, sleep, watch TV, go to school, but who will even notice that something traumaic has just happened to you and you been so devastating and wanting to die.

not the end of the world, let bygone be begone, life still goes on, sun comes on and goes off, everything is on its track, except you view the world already twisted.
again, alcohol and drugs are people's good friend, in situation like this.

but life still can be beautiful, depends on how you deal with it, you can take it seriously, or don't give a crap.