Dear Alice,

Firstly, I read the e-mail u sent me about how u're feeling, and the correspondance with him.
I don't know what to tell you, except forget about him and move on. I will be honest with you, there is no such things as a "soulmate," I thought for a long time that there was, but there is'nt. Everyone is different, and you have to be open to learn about different people, and one day you will another person who has qualities you will admire and love. I have
started getting numbers from girls like there is no tomorrow, and I talk to these girls and I'm generally disatisifed. I've realized that disatisfaction is not from them, or the fact that they are imperfect, its that I'm not dating them. I desire relationships, since I was set on the fact that I would end up
marrying Priya. In other words, perhaps I would be happy sharing the company of another woman if I were dating under boyfriend-girlfriend circumstances. He
might have and still might seem like "the one." He isn't, and you need to have more integrity and value in yourself to make it seem to yourself and everyone
who knows you that he isn't really worth all of this.

I did the same thing, I put Priya above me, above everything else and in the end I got screwed, no body else yeah? I have come to accept that she is imperfect, we ALL are. No one is perfect, no couple are 100% compatible. When I cry, and yes, I will not pretend that I do not cry, or feel like bursting out sometimes, I cry for the memories I have, for what I thought was to be; I cry for my loss. At the opposite
end, I look at the fun I have too. I think about the future I still have, and the only person who can destroy that is me.

I know you had memories with him, and I know and read what he told you in his e-mail. Forget about it. I feel terrible about what I read, but all I can say is you not only did'nt deserve him, but you can do better and deserve better. Why waste time on someone who is not willing to do the same for you? Remember we base a lot of our emotions, and ultimately, love on perceptions. Our erceptions act as a guage to tell us how we feel thigns are going, and how we anticipate them to continue. But as human beings, we fail to see the illusion, our perceptions can be incorrect and we can grossly misjudge a situation, and by this point
our emotions have already followed a certain path. When the reality sets in, this is when thigns go wrong. What I'm trying to say is we all believe when
we lose a person that we are in love with that it is an eternal loss. Is it? It is only a loss is we want it to be.

Everything is hard Alice. There are so many Australians here, so many products in HK that are from
Australia. Hell one of my best mates is Australian! That reminds me of the country where Priya lives, where I was supposed to live. I see an Indian girl and
she reminds me of my ex...it seems inescapable, but time will handle our emotions only if we allow ourselves the time to heal. I too feel like an emotional yo-yo, but I do things to make me happy even if I'm always unhappy too. I now find myself not thinking about Priya for a stretch of time, maybe even a whole day, and other times when I think about what happened for a whole day. BUt in the end, I go out, show myself a good time and live my life. Fuck her, she is'nt my life anymore and I can't fuckin let her have any control over how my life will end up. If I
do, I lose. The more you think about it Alice, the more you dwell into it, the harder it gets. Its harsh, and I'm sorry, but believe me, a beautiful,
intelligent young woman such as yourself will have no problem getting an equally worthy man. I realized where most of my depression came from and now I'm
learning to get the upper hand. The problem was I thought too much. I thought about her, I tried to understand, I tried and tried, thought and though,
spent hours, day after day trying to figure out and understand something that perhaps has no answer. In the end, my realization was that she, Priya, is imperfect like the rest of us. She is not the angel I thought she was, or perhaps expected her to be. No one is and I will remember that next time. I realized that perhaps I won't ever get married, or maybe I will, but more importantly, I realized that there are other
women in this world who can make me happy. Maybe it won't happen a year from now, maybe not even ten years from now, maybe never if I decide marriage is not what
I want, but there are people out there. Give everybody a chance. DOn't be to quick to judge them as being suitable for you and let your emotions run wild, at the same time, don;t be to harsh, as the person you act harshly on might be the person who is
compatible for you. Don't give up home, live life, have fun (for the right reasons, not cause you want to drown your sorrows). And for my sake, stay clear of the bad stuff okay? If you really like it, then do it, but if you're just doing it cause you can't care less about yourself, then stop, analyze who's losing out and then make your choice.
I know you can do better, and I know things will get easier, but you have to allow yourself to move on, even if its a lil bit at a time.

On to some happy stuff :) I'm REALLY happy to hear your coming to HK, but for such a short time :( But hey at least you're here for Lan Kwai Fong weekend--Woo Hoo!!!! This is really great news, I'm glad you decided to stop here on the way to Taiwan.
I'll give you a call during the week or this coming weekend.

Well take care, smile, and be happy :)
Kar