Is it independent or cold? This question is worth thinking.
I know how the relationship works, so I know I can’t depend on you anymore.
I think I’ll be more independent and will not make you worry about me.
You don’t have to carry my feelings since you’re not somebody in my life, and I’m not somebody in you life, neither.
Being cold can prevent myself from getting hurt. I knew much better that I can’t expect anything.
And I’m not, neither.
But is it good for me or not? I don’t know how to control my emotion...
On the moment, I admit that I really enjoyed it. But afterwards, I started feel guilty.
I don’t know if it’s right or wrong. I’m the kind of person who blames all the fault on himself.
I know much better how it feels to be in this relationship.
There’s nothing more painful than that. You have to bear everything on your own.
You can’t call for help for anytime. You can’t tell if you feel upset.
How can I forget the time I was in this kind of relationship. How can I forget the nights I went to bed with my tears. How can I forget how helpless I was. How can I let the memories go.
I still can’t figure out why I always put myself into this situation. Probably everyone will have done something wrong again and again before it really hurts badly.
But it’s undeniable that there are some people who are really into this feeling.
And, I’m not sure whether I’m this kind of person or not.
I know how it hurts much better, then why I still did the same thing? Does it prove that I’m this kind of person?

I don’t know.
It’s really weird that things go this situation. None of us expected this. I still can’t believe what have happend. Was it a dream?
We’ve both agreed to cherish the time we’re together and just enjoy our lives happily. To live under the moment, right?
I said that nothing can be worse than what I suffered before. So, does it mean that I’ve given up my life? I don’t think so.
Then why did we made the decision? Do you know?
I’ve been wondering what you were thinking. Have you ever asked yourself this question? I bet you haven’t.
I’m not asking you anything. You don’t own me anything. I knew much better!
I knew how it works. I knew what my role is. I knew what I can do, what I can’t.
I’m just wondering how this relationship will work. I’ve never though this thing happen in my life.
After talking with you, I felt better.
Though sometimes I thought that I understand men well, I can’t understand everything what men are thinking.
You said that I can say no to you whenever I'm not feeling well. I really appreciate that.
However, to be honestly, I’ll think that is it a trap for me or not. I guess I just can’t believer men by one hundred percent now.
Just don’t hurt me, please. You knew how my life was before. I don't think I could bear that kind of things anymore. So, please don’t do that to me. Just tell me what you want and don’t hurt me.
Again, thanks for the company and understanding.