Now, the only man who can let me cry is YP.
Though I know that everything is my fault, I can’t stop feelling frustrated.
I can’t stop blaming on myself.

The first one is I didn’t finish the book he asked us to read.
Then, of course, I couln’t answer his questions very well.
So, I felt frustrated.
The second thing is that today YP told us that how Chinese students study and they have the competitive strength in the current world.
I felt pressured.
I’ll graduate from university in two years.
What should I gonna do?
I completely have no idea.
I know that I always put way too much pressure on myself but I just can’t stop thinking everything.
Shit!
And now, I’m still sitting here waste my time complaining.
I haven’t finish the handouts yet.
Actually, I just read them for 3 pages...

Really, I feel so bad now.
I think I’m a loser.
loser
loser
loser
Sometimes I really want to suspend my schooling.

I know I can’t depand on anyone, but sometimes I really want to have someone beside me.
Being strong is very tiring.
And I’m the one who always try to be strong by myself, even when I can’t sometimes.