就今天啊
早上6点到的
回家睡一睡就跟vivi出去了

因为心情真的很复杂 所以就想说根别人聊一聊
因为我知道我快要不行了

怎么说呢
我不喜欢温哥华拉
我想回家
我喜欢北京
我收悉的地方
可是我知道不行啊
因为就不行啊
跟家人说也只是没有
而且让他们担心而已把

but you know i tried
i tried to fit in to their culture
i tried my hardest to be like a canadian
i tired to fill up my sechdule so i have no time to worry about life
but i just cant stand it anymore
i m done with it

sometimes,
when you r pushed to a limit,
when you r totally exausted,
you will want to give up everything and just relax.
i mean i m really tired

I m tried of being ignored
I m tired of being the clown
I m tired of being laugh at
I m tired of trying to fit in
I m tired of trying new things
I m tried of seeing myself incapable of everything
I AM TIREDD
can i just let go and just give up?



根本就不行把
因为没有人会懂
我也放弃去寻找一个可以懂我的人了

because i know, i m only with myself
in here, in Canada

I used to love bright colors
I used to blab all day
My piano used to sound like theres no emotion in it
I used to consider listening to musics as a waste of time
but now..i ve changed

我变得喜欢黑色
我变得很安静
连我的钢琴曲子都变得too emotional
我会把自己都弹到哭
我喜欢听歌
我变得很奇怪就对了

but who cares?

佳给我的那个信我真的很感动<3
我哭得稀里哗啦 因为只有你才可以不用解释就完全了解我拔
可是我知道 越是这样我会越舍不得


如果我放弃了
我的family怎么办
我的前途怎么办
我的英语怎么办

I know,
except for keep moving forward,
i have no other choice.

大家都说我很cheerful
很开朗
but the ones who really know me
才知道真正的我把


这些只是没用的想法而已
因为我知道
再怎么辛苦
再怎么难过
我都要坚强的继续走下去
因为风雨过后就是彩虹
因为我是永远都打不倒的annI!!

所以不用担心
我会努力找回自己
然后一直微笑 =)