2010-07-23 19:41:37h2o

rules dont apply

 tried 
to carry on , to act the way you wanted 
to not show the pain to not feel the pain to not be sad to be brave 
to smile on 


all I want 
is to make you proud

its painful 
to feel the grief
accomplished the goals too late for you to see
motivation slipping through my fingers 
losing it 

pain increases as time goes by

regarding death
against all rules
it doesnt matter if I tried hard enough 
I still cant keep you
all I can do
was to smile and let you go
love
makes us pretend to accept everything 
we smiled and said we will smile and live on 
when all we wanted was to have you be with us forever


just when you thought you had everything
He takes away the most precious thing of yours
and you'll learned 
that it wasnt about if you tried hard then you'll get reward
and you have no control , 
doesnt matter if you tried hard or not
effort is nothing
there's things where you're forced to accept