なかなっ?持ちがよくなかった。どうしたって聞きたいでしょ？
i don't know when i losing my confidence on job. Besides, i lose more focus on love affair.
i got tired feeling to feel the world. nothing intresting for me! 
yeah, maybe u still love me so. but i couldn't figure out what the future will become while i lose job for a long time.
even i look at myself, i discovring that i am so sad for myself. i look myself down.
i don't have any ability and how come i enger u should stay with me for  whole life.
i don't know what can i do and which way i can walk for.
she told me i just don't have confidence for myself , i having good ability and i didn't use it well. ching-long said to me.
but i really just look down myself and can't show me out?
i don't think so, how much ability i have i knew better than anyother one.
someone says that no matter who look down you if you look down ourselves that who is loser.
yeah....maybe i am the one of losers....
i really want to cheer myself up. but the sad and bad emotions are fill me with.
anyway i am a mad woman= =
forget it