2003-09-09 04:34:43Ali
My Prayer Is Answered.
"This year, Ali will never cry for love, will never be sad for trifles. i hope my new year will be full of good friends and meeting nice people.
i'll keep my fingers crossed! *souri*" this was my prayer on New Year's Eve. I think my prayer is being answered already,well, even more.
God sent an angel to save me from my miserable pessimism of love. He made me see the miracle. My heart is living now becoz i have the nourishing of love and caring. it's never easy that u find true love; i think i have found mine, but it is way too easy, so i know the distance is the task i have to conquer. there will be many problems if two people can't see each other, distrust, fights, the list will go on and on. i feel depressed for the distance that i wanted to give it up, but i know God tries to fool me, guide me the wrong way to test if i believe in this relationship. YES I DO. this is the first time i feel happy when i think of someone. i feel safe even tho he's so far away, i know he'll always be there for me. this is the first time i am afraid of death coz i don't want to leave him nor him to leave me. this is the first time i keep this relationship low-keyed coz i want to enjoy the simple quiet moment with someone; i know it's true love.
i did ask myself if i wanna get marry at such a early age, before i really have the chance to see the world by myself; i asked myself what if i met someone else after marrying this guy whom i misunderstand, will i regret? i couldn't answer all these questions that i asked myself until today when HE told me he believed in us and he would try his very best to work this relationship out because i took his heart away, he had to fight for us so he won't lose his heart. i know HE's being sweet, trying to cheer me up, he did get his purpose and even more. i know i will be willing to spend the rest of my life with this person without any regret and doubt. but this is not the end of the story yet, there will be more difficulties ahead coz this is life for life is full of challenges and hopes. no matter what, i will do my best to make this miracle survive and become a legend. a legend that an angel changed a little girl's mind and made this little girl believed in love again, once upon a time...
this is also the first time i pray to God with all my life, "plz...plz never take this angel away from me."
i'll keep my fingers crossed! *souri*" this was my prayer on New Year's Eve. I think my prayer is being answered already,well, even more.
God sent an angel to save me from my miserable pessimism of love. He made me see the miracle. My heart is living now becoz i have the nourishing of love and caring. it's never easy that u find true love; i think i have found mine, but it is way too easy, so i know the distance is the task i have to conquer. there will be many problems if two people can't see each other, distrust, fights, the list will go on and on. i feel depressed for the distance that i wanted to give it up, but i know God tries to fool me, guide me the wrong way to test if i believe in this relationship. YES I DO. this is the first time i feel happy when i think of someone. i feel safe even tho he's so far away, i know he'll always be there for me. this is the first time i am afraid of death coz i don't want to leave him nor him to leave me. this is the first time i keep this relationship low-keyed coz i want to enjoy the simple quiet moment with someone; i know it's true love.
i did ask myself if i wanna get marry at such a early age, before i really have the chance to see the world by myself; i asked myself what if i met someone else after marrying this guy whom i misunderstand, will i regret? i couldn't answer all these questions that i asked myself until today when HE told me he believed in us and he would try his very best to work this relationship out because i took his heart away, he had to fight for us so he won't lose his heart. i know HE's being sweet, trying to cheer me up, he did get his purpose and even more. i know i will be willing to spend the rest of my life with this person without any regret and doubt. but this is not the end of the story yet, there will be more difficulties ahead coz this is life for life is full of challenges and hopes. no matter what, i will do my best to make this miracle survive and become a legend. a legend that an angel changed a little girl's mind and made this little girl believed in love again, once upon a time...
this is also the first time i pray to God with all my life, "plz...plz never take this angel away from me."