Am I just so difficult to be remebered?
Or, am I just so easy to be forgotten?

This is not the first time, and I know this will happen again and again.

Should I be more actve? Just what Raymond told me some days before? I remember Louis told me to speak out for myself, too.

I was active, in the past. I was. And many things came across me that time, happiness and unhappiness.

I just know that I can't handle those gissops and scandles. They really hurt a person. I just know that I need to protect myself. I just know that after all these terrible experiences I will grow and be more successful. This is what they taught me, that is what I learnt over these years.

Am I doing wrong again? Or the world is not doing that way?