又辣又嗆的感受刺激著我的口腔內膜
望著裊裊升起的煙霧,到底能帶給我什麼??
煙就這麼慢慢地往上飄,擴散,消失
而我,卻陷得更深,面對著更黑暗的幽谷
那天妳問,who needs salvation?
I DO need

everytime I write something about life or suicide
I’m actually crying out for help
but no one notice it,no one
I try hard to face and embrace life
but in vain
I don’t and,maybe,won’t understand why this is so hard for me
I try everything
things go well in some time
and suddenly, in a random moment
without any cause, I break down
again and again
I’m damned, deeply damned
and no one will come to my rescue,even God
I’m so damned

maybe that’s why I bought new paradise and coffee in 7-11
I don’t actually know how to smoke,and I don’t smoke
yet, this time I feel an instant need of it
I don’t like smoking
I just want to try anything that could kill me gradully
this is what i’ve been doing in those days
trying everything that could deprive my breath and heartbeat

anyone who read this article
never mind
I would be fine
il y a un jour,j’irai bien