2005-08-04 23:03:22出前一丁

God, please....

Nearly got into a quarrel with my supervisor today.

It was as busy as usual at work, I was chasing some orders on the phone, yet didn’t’ really get a satisfactory reply from the person over the phone, while my supervisor was having fun with other colleagues and bumped into me with her chair. I knock the chair back and she said, " What?" I told her with some attitude that she actually bumped into me just then. She said, " sorry loh." Later, she gave me a lecture for 20 minutes saying I should not show my temper in front of other colleagues.

I suppose so.

Yet I was still upset, since she simply didn’t understand she was doing this kind of complaining and temper-showing to us all the time. Now she said I should not act like her? O....K....

Well, something I realized as well. It was the fact that whenever I was not in a good mood, I found her actually was. Don’t call me a sarcastic, but she actually felt better when someone was not. Sigh......

Today I listen to the radio and heard someone mentioning some symptoms of depression. I actually felt a little similar. I know I have been working too hard and have been forgetting my meals, my emotions, and my leisure time solely for myself and not worrying about my friends. (Sorry if I have offended anyone, but I actually felt that I have spent too much time worrying about others that I forget about caring for myself) I DO need to love myself. I thought I was GOD but I just far too away from being one.

I haven’t read a book (or pages of a book) for months. How I miss those leisure time. I haven’t listen to any Japanese. I haven’t......

I need to treat myself super good this Saturday. I promise.