Today was another busy day for him. I didn't actually miss him that much. I guess my passion was a little cooled down. He was a little upset when he found out I didn't pay much attention to him. At least I sensed he was feeling this way.

What else can I actually do? I am just true to my emotions, at least. I don't need to pretend or deny my feelings, I just let them out and let people judge. Unlike him. He was always playing with my feelings, yet got pissed off when I didn't return his signals.

He nearly got into a quarrel with my supervisor today. I didn't want to be involved, since both of them were my bosses. Both of them have their point, so I'd better keep my mouth shut. In times like these, nothing much could be done.

My mom said he treated me merely like a younger sister. Is that really so? I wonder. I wish it's a little more than that. Maybe I act childish in front of him, but I don't really want him to treat me like his sister, for God's sake. There must be something more. (I am in denial stage, still)

When I was small, I always wished to have an elder brother who would treat me dearly and care for me at all times, but towards him, I feel like we are quite equal.

Well, enough of these thoughts.