my recent feelings
"You don't have to worry about me anymore,I am not after u anymore.
Not saying I am after sb else, just that I am not after anyone.
I still like u."
He suddently mentioned this topic again, really don't know wat to respond. But, the only thing surprised me is he said he STILL likes me. I meant... after ignoring him n hiding from him n rejected him since the first time he comfirmed he likes me for no reason. He might just simply like me, but I simply choose not to give any response. n such blurred relationship seems to the only reason why we stiill have sth. in connection. I am actually jealous of him...at least he has someone special to him in his mind.
I am sick of my hollow mind.
我的爱情流离失所,我的友情凌乱不堪,
想给自己设定“力所能及”的界限,
但对于有些人有些事, 我觉得自己没有在尽力。
PIGGY会很顽固的想去维持破裂的友情,我只会选择收拾心情,继续生活。
王淼的空间貌似把我BLOCK掉了,意外的发现我的另一个Q却可以登入。
一直以来的猜测还是成真了,不明白为什么她会这样做,
如果只是因为很久没有联系和帮助她找学校的事没有结果, 我只能重新审视我们的友情。
我讨厌表面的友谊,但周围的确一直存在。
也会因为自己的不争取而有犯罪感,但犯罪感也并不会让我有主动的勇气。
总感觉很靠近自己的朋友有时离自己其实很远......
最近的生活或者是匆忙或者是暇意,我开始喜欢这样的生活了。
或许是因为有人陪伴的感觉让我淡忘心里的孤单。
有点小小的期待1月份的回国,我想到的是见到琼的画面。
或者再让我贪心一点,奢望在那一条放学的路碰见CK一次,最后一次。
或许他已经忘记我的样子,安静的像以前那样从我身旁经过。
或许他会依然记得我的样子,迎面走来时给我一个微笑,然后擦肩。
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这一次的放假虽然只是进出于LIBARY和FOOD COURT,但因为SJ和WEI,还有PIGGY的陪伴,无聊的WEEKEND我也觉得很充实 >_<
其实,我是个容易满足的人。
PS:SJ 和 WEI 真的很可爱。。。哈哈。。搞笑2 人组。。。
下一篇:无谓的想法。
雨下得真大!! 真煩!!